feeling broken, barely holding on. but there's something so strong somewhere inside of me and i am down but i'll get up again. don't count me out just yet. i've been brought to my knees and i've been pushed way past the point of breaking, but i can take it. i'll be back on my feet. this is far from over, you haven't seen the last of me. they can say that i won't be around, but i'm gonna stand my ground. you're not gonna stop me, you don't know me. you don't know who i am. don't count me out so fast. this will be no fade out, this is not the end. i'm down now, but i'll be standing tall again. times are hard but i was built tough. i'm gonna show you all what i'm made of. i'm not going anywhere, i'm staying right here. you won't see me begging, i'm not taking my bow. can't stop me, it's not the end. you haven't seen the last of me.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
use somebody.
so i've re-discovered the song "use somebody" by kings of leon, and it's on repeat in my head.
especially this version ^^
it makes me really think about the lyrics of this song.. and i'm not writing this from the most sober of minds but i hope it doesn't deter from what i'm attempting to express in these simplistic words. it's a song that stems deep from the soul. lyrics that reach out and attempt to grab the attention of others. it's a compilation of incomplete thoughts, hopes and dreams. a wish that someone would just pay attention. a wish that someone would see the pain.. the longing for something more.. for a connection, a true connection with others. a connection more than just a superficial facebook hello or an 'i miss you' text. more than just a passing smile in the mall. something real. something tangible. something we can visibly see in front of us and feel with our hearts. our world and lives have become so technological that people barely seem real anymore. i have over 600 facebook friends. probably around 10 of them i really keep in true contact with. i have several followers on twitter, 3 of which i actually know. and i have no idea how many people will see this, if any at all. i guess what i'm trying to get at is that relationships today are nothing compared to what they were or should be. people are fake. people are mean. they bully behind technology and smile to your face. suicide rates have hit all time highs. we no longer have real relationships. people often think i'm crazy when i say that i'm lonely. i get a lot of, 'why? you have so many friends on facebook. so many people will write on your wall, comment on pictures, retweet your tweets..' this doesn't really mean much to me. i have a friend that went out of her way not too long ago to bring me crackers 'n sprite when i was sick. relationships involve actually doing something when they ask you. the phrase 'let me know if you need anything' has become vastly overused and hardly seems like a valid statement anymore. there are very few exceptions to this, 'n i believe there are people out there that truly do mean it when they say that phrase to people... i've just stumbled across a few too many that don't mean it.
this song just really reminds me of the distance between people. i often feel as if i'm watching the world from behind a glass window. as much as i'd like to grab someone's attention, i'm not able to. there's always miles between me 'n the person sitting in the chair next to mine. i wish sometimes i could get someone to see.. to step to my side of the glass, 'n help me break this barrier. doesn't work for me though. maybe it's plexiglass instead -ha!
i hope it's gonna make you notice...
you know that i could use somebody..
i've been roaming around, i was looking down at all i see..
painted faces fill the places i can't reach.......
especially this version ^^
it makes me really think about the lyrics of this song.. and i'm not writing this from the most sober of minds but i hope it doesn't deter from what i'm attempting to express in these simplistic words. it's a song that stems deep from the soul. lyrics that reach out and attempt to grab the attention of others. it's a compilation of incomplete thoughts, hopes and dreams. a wish that someone would just pay attention. a wish that someone would see the pain.. the longing for something more.. for a connection, a true connection with others. a connection more than just a superficial facebook hello or an 'i miss you' text. more than just a passing smile in the mall. something real. something tangible. something we can visibly see in front of us and feel with our hearts. our world and lives have become so technological that people barely seem real anymore. i have over 600 facebook friends. probably around 10 of them i really keep in true contact with. i have several followers on twitter, 3 of which i actually know. and i have no idea how many people will see this, if any at all. i guess what i'm trying to get at is that relationships today are nothing compared to what they were or should be. people are fake. people are mean. they bully behind technology and smile to your face. suicide rates have hit all time highs. we no longer have real relationships. people often think i'm crazy when i say that i'm lonely. i get a lot of, 'why? you have so many friends on facebook. so many people will write on your wall, comment on pictures, retweet your tweets..' this doesn't really mean much to me. i have a friend that went out of her way not too long ago to bring me crackers 'n sprite when i was sick. relationships involve actually doing something when they ask you. the phrase 'let me know if you need anything' has become vastly overused and hardly seems like a valid statement anymore. there are very few exceptions to this, 'n i believe there are people out there that truly do mean it when they say that phrase to people... i've just stumbled across a few too many that don't mean it.
this song just really reminds me of the distance between people. i often feel as if i'm watching the world from behind a glass window. as much as i'd like to grab someone's attention, i'm not able to. there's always miles between me 'n the person sitting in the chair next to mine. i wish sometimes i could get someone to see.. to step to my side of the glass, 'n help me break this barrier. doesn't work for me though. maybe it's plexiglass instead -ha!
i hope it's gonna make you notice...
you know that i could use somebody..
i've been roaming around, i was looking down at all i see..
painted faces fill the places i can't reach.......
been thinking...
i always choke when it comes to writing on a blog. i'm not quite sure why. i'd like to use this as a journal type blog but not entirely sure what all to write about... i guess we'll just start with what's on my mind.
i'm currently living in the south, and i'm from the much farther north. today is a day this area considers a "snow day" when there's a half inch of snow on the ground - lol - and they've shut down the entire army post in the area because of it. however this "snow day" has also shut down the city and it's creating quite the boredom.
i typically don't do well with down time, it usually causes my mind to wander. to wander to dark places, past memories, and frightful scenarios. the last couple days have been sort of troubling for my mind. but i have a wonderful husband who allowed me to cry like a baby in his arms last night and share my insecurities. a friend of mine blogged today about what she loved, and i would have to say that i love my husband. i know it's totally 'n completely corny to say it but i love him as a whole, and especially the little things he does. i love the way he randomly comes over 'n just kisses me, just because. i love the way he lets me talk about for hours on end about how i hate my body... and that he will let me finish 'n just look at me like i said the dumbest thing on earth and tells me how beautiful i am. i love how he lets me cry when i need to 'n just holds me when i need it. i love how we have such a stupid sense of humor that can make us both last forever. i love how we're both nerds. and most of all i love how i can tell him how i don't deserve someone as good as him, and he tells me that he's the luckiest guy in the world.
i love him.
and that's all i've got for today
xxlovexmexx
i'm currently living in the south, and i'm from the much farther north. today is a day this area considers a "snow day" when there's a half inch of snow on the ground - lol - and they've shut down the entire army post in the area because of it. however this "snow day" has also shut down the city and it's creating quite the boredom.
i typically don't do well with down time, it usually causes my mind to wander. to wander to dark places, past memories, and frightful scenarios. the last couple days have been sort of troubling for my mind. but i have a wonderful husband who allowed me to cry like a baby in his arms last night and share my insecurities. a friend of mine blogged today about what she loved, and i would have to say that i love my husband. i know it's totally 'n completely corny to say it but i love him as a whole, and especially the little things he does. i love the way he randomly comes over 'n just kisses me, just because. i love the way he lets me talk about for hours on end about how i hate my body... and that he will let me finish 'n just look at me like i said the dumbest thing on earth and tells me how beautiful i am. i love how he lets me cry when i need to 'n just holds me when i need it. i love how we have such a stupid sense of humor that can make us both last forever. i love how we're both nerds. and most of all i love how i can tell him how i don't deserve someone as good as him, and he tells me that he's the luckiest guy in the world.
i love him.
and that's all i've got for today
xxlovexmexx
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